Kate Beckinsale says her stepfather's death will 'haunt her forever'

Kate Beckinsale marked the one-year anniversary of her stepfather's death with a candid and emotional post, detailing what it was like for her and her father to die.

The actress shared a picture of her late stepfather, Ray Batterseathrough him Instagram account Friday, January 10. In the picture, Roy is seen wearing a fancy shirt that reads, “World's Best Farter. I mean dad” and smiling with a bouquet of flowers.

“Finding my father's dead body alone in the middle of the night at the age of five shaped my entire life. Watching my beloved stepfather die one year ago today will haunt me forever,” Beckinsale, 51, wrote in a lengthy tribute. “It seems horribly careless to have both been present for death and unable to prevent both, a second time trying with everything I have. It wasn't enough.”

D canary black The actress reflected on her grief and sense of loss surrounding Battersea's death, who died in January 2024 in Los Angeles “A brief illness” followed.

“In the process of losing my beloved Roy I lost family, friendships, at times my own health and all the money I had. That's how disgusting the American health care system is for the uninsured. I would do it all over again. No question. I feel Can't believe I've failed miserably,” she wrote

Beckinsale went on to explain that she was leaning on what she could to “comfort” herself, telling herself that Battersea was ready for the end of her life and was “at peace with it.”

“It seems like a lie I'm telling myself to try and feel better. Maybe I'm unfortunately not enlightened enough to sell it to myself because of my loss, guilt and failure,” she admitted.

According to Beckinsale, the one-year anniversary of Battersea's death was a hard pill to swallow.

“It's a hard day to talk about our new and precious tragedy, but I couldn't save him, I'll be damned if I don't honor him in some small way,” he continued. “He taught me how to be brave. He taught me that it doesn't matter if people don't like you as long as you do the right thing, he lost everything fighting for justice for the trade unions, for the Palestinians in the 70s, living with them. Refugee camps in Lebanon for several years, making his 1977 documentary “The Palestinian,” fighting for miners who lost everything in the strike.”

He concluded, “I am so lucky to have been raised by someone who uncompromisingly knew what was right and lived it. And loved me. Thank you for being my father. I miss you so much.”