Meghan is the coach coping Mental health challenges After welcoming baby No. 2 in 2023.
“A month after having my second child, I hit a breaking point,” Trainor, 31, wrote in an essay. today Published on Thursday 9th January. “I'll never forget it, it's like yesterday – I'm sweating, just thinking about it. I held Barry, my newborn, and he was crying and crying. My husband was with our little baby, Riley, putting him to bed, so I held Barry. I was alone with her and she wouldn't stop crying and then I was crying.”
She added, “I was having a panic attack and I was just super tired, but I felt like I was going to die. I felt like if I stood up, I would pass out. I didn't feel safe holding the baby and at the same time I felt like It was like my body was giving up on me.”
Coach and her husband, the actor Daryl SabaraWelcomed sons Riley and Barry in 2021 and 2023 respectively. in a short time After Barry arrivesThe singer was aware that something felt different.
“I told my husband, 'Daryl, I need help.' He said, 'Yes, I am, no worries.' And I said, 'No, no, no, something's wrong. I want to babysit you and I need to make some calls. I have to call my mother. I need to call a doctor. I need help,'' the instructor recalled. “So I called everyone. I knew I would get through it, but I needed to hear from my support team that I would get through it. My doctor wrote me a prescription for a drug that would help me that night. I took it and I felt so much better.”
was a trainer previously diagnosed With post-traumatic stress disorder after the birth of eldest son Riley.
“A few months after the birth and I was having nightmares that I was still on the operating table and I could feel the doctor's hands inside me,” she said, referring to her C-section delivery. “He said, 'OK, so this is a form of PTSD and we need to talk through it and get through it.'”
Coach previously struggled with his mental health when he was growing up.
“I was on antidepressants before I had children. I'm thankful that I had mental health issues before I got pregnant,” she wrote in Thursday's essay. “I already understood how my brain worked. Going into pregnancy, I knew I had to ask for help and be prepared.”
With her doctors' recommendations, Trainor continued taking her antidepressant medication during both pregnancies.
“In the hospital, a lot of nurses would look at me and say, 'Oh, it's probably because of your antidepressants.' My doctor and my psychiatrist assured me that wasn't true,” added the trainer. “But then, during my second pregnancy, every day I asked myself, 'Is this why Riley went to the NICU?' I felt crazy. But I was, again, on my antidepressants the whole time, and my second baby was born via C-section and came out crying — perfect.”
After struggling with postpartum changes the first time around, Traynor knew to ask for help when Barry arrived.
“My husband and I communicate about everything, even if it's brutal and honest,” she insists. “I told her that during our first postpartum experience, getting up as evenly as she did didn't feel right because I was recovering from a major surgery. I said, 'I never told you, but I was resentful of you when you were sleeping and I was hurting.' So for our second baby, she was up all night, every night, with Barry and fed him formula.”
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